An evening run

This is the time to start. I have been kinda lost the past couple of month. Its been a turbulent time for me. Lots have happend that I dont want to mention here right now. I can say this much: Life is not following my plan in my head.

when Im sitting here right before Im going to bed I feel rather good with myself. I have realized that I dont really have been myself these past years. Not that I have forsaken me for anything else, rather I have not found myself. its not easy to find out where I am. There are only one that can help me with that and that is God. He has been there for me all the time but because certain happenings I havent been "able" to focus on me.

I maybe should mention that Im a member of The Church of Jesus christ of Latter day saints, thats where my belief is.

Back to what I have realized.

I have always been a strong person. That is my strength and weakness. I have my opinions and it takes strong convincing to make me change what I think about a certain subject/matter. What I have done the last couple of years is that I have put aside that and tried to be someone else. Its kinda clishé but its still true. Instead of making me the foundation I have started building a new one on small pieces of rocks...what other thinks. Even if it looks solid its not. its easy for water to loosen up the ground under it and make everything or pieces of it to fall down again. What everyone needs to do is to make themselves the foundation, take the strong sides of you and shape what you learn from others with it. making any sence?

Anyhow i started running today. Ran for 35 minutes and did some small exersices along the way. It felt really good. You could clear your head and just focusing on the run. I will try to run at least as much every day from now on.